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Monday, July 14, 2008

This may not make sense to you, but to me it made plenty of sense, even after re-reading it over and over again...

Today someone asked me, "What is life?” Life is the period of time from when you were conceived to when you die. But there is so much more to it. You're brought into this world without any say, and from the womb of your mothers stomach, your life begins. Are you going to enjoy, a glorious, blissful, problem free life; a life that seems like a treacherous, never-ending, windy, bumpy road; or a life of problems and happiness that seems to fall in between? No one can be certain, only time can tell. But in life you encounter such things that force you to feel happiness, sadness, anger, grief, sympathy, joy, depression, love, regret, broken hearts, and so many other emotions; that lead you to choose paths that will lead to the big ending road, death, or where life ends. Life to one person can mean a totally different thing to another. I suppose it all kind of plays out on "what cards you get dealt." But then again, depending on how you choose to play the game, it wouldn't even matter what cards you end up with.

Life is full of hills that go up and down, but it is also full of straight roads. The ups are the best times, usually felt when you've accomplished something great. Something that makes you happy inside, that makes you want life to go on forever and never end, and to every single person, that up is different. The downs are the worse times, the times when something tremendously awful happens, that makes you either want to crawl away and hide from the rest of the world, or makes you just want life to end immediately. But along with the ups and the downs are the straight roads. The straight roads are the times where we just glide along with little bumps that so ever slightly incline and decline. It's the time when you feel alright with life, when you're having positive things happen and you're taking them in along with the bad. These are the times when you know you don't want to die in an instant, but you also know you don't want life to go on forever. These straight roads are where you see the most, their when you're vision is clearest. When you're living life on an uphill then you ignore the bad around you, you ignore the lows that other people could be feeling, and you lose sight of what could happen in the future. You never know when you're up's could swiftly turn into a down grade. When you're living on a downhill you do nothing to find the good, until it comes to the very end, and you either realize that you want to do something about it, and make it better, or you choose the path to end it. But on the straight roads, your vision is generally clear. You see the good and you see the bad, and it's easiest to choose the right paths, because you choose the paths that will end best in the long run, instead of the paths that are a temporary fix.

But then again who am I to say what life is. I'm only 20 years old and have so much more to live. I do know however that I've had my ups and I've definitely had some terrible downs, but I take those along with my straight roads. I imagine my opinion of life will be different 20 years from now, but to me this is what life is, and this is how I see it. And for right now, I'm gliding along on the straight roads, borderline a downhill, but I'm sure later, I'll be having an awesome up. And the idea of having an up is what makes me get up every single morning to live another day in this thing we call life. This is a single person’s perspective on life, and it only begins to scratch the surface. There is just so much to it. So much we don't even know.

So yeah. That's my outtake on that...

In other news:

Winter break is almost coming to an end and I am not looking forward to going back to school. I've enjoyed being able to get at least 10 hours of sleep a night, and I honestly do not want to go back to the 5-6 hours of sleep a night I was getting. It's a vicious cycle that makes me sad and upset. That makes me mood swing more than need be. And I am not looking forward to all the fucking assignments that are going to be hurled at us. I'm being a downer right now so I won't even go into my blabbering gibberish that would go on forever. It's just not good for me to talk about such things anyway. I didn't do much this break which was a disappointment, I wanted to hang out with friends more, but I don't know what happened. And now the rest of the week is going to be boring. Probably should catch up on dome reading to get my brain back in gear. Sometimes I just hate uni with a fucking passion.

Labels: insomnia, life, personal, random, sleep, thoughts, winter

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